thebeckybug

Hello there, hi again, oh yeah, I forgot I had a website, too. It is nice of you to drop by again, though. Well, nice if you’re not one of my innumerable dedicated spammers. Do any other bloggers get this much spam? Alas, I suppose it is part of the medium.

Anyway, about me: a couple months ago the world that usually spins quietly along for me started rocking and rolling. I am still attempting to find a perspective on the situation, but really, things just exploded an landed in a lovely mess.

Back Story: A year ago I made a couple goals for myself:
a. Know where the relationship with my boyfriend (My Favorite) is going in one year. If it is not going where I want it to, then get out.
b. Do something with this first-draft bakery business plan I put together if I’m still thinking about it in a year.

And then it sorta happened all like this:
1. Told my enterprising father that I wanted to own a bakery some day
2. I decided I needed more money to chase my bake shop dreams
3. Applied for grad school so as to teach high school and have my summers off to chase my dreams
4. Met a family friend, who ran a newly opened bakery, and who needed a partner
5. Let graduate school applications stay blank on my desk
6. Started working at all hours of every day on exciting new bakery (in addition to my two other jobs)
7. Realized my current relationship is not capable of handling my new momentum
8. Looked for a new place to live and find tons of weird and one awesome roommate situation
9. Cried about the stress in my life
10. The ex moved out and I get to keep the place - but not the dogs
11. Got interested in a new dude (who happened to be the possible future roommate)
12. Ex got mad and decided we’re not to be friends and I will never see dogs again
13. Grieved my dogs
14. Nanny family made a new! adorable! baby! and I started working well into the evenings
15. Estrogen levels rose, I got burnt out on everything and cursed myself for not being superhuman
16. Things evened out and the future got bright

Out of all the many things that have recently happened, it is hard to wrap my head around any of them. I know things are good but I know that there are these aftershocks still happening from an intense breakup. I have however, found myself meeting new people again and making actual friends of them. Sometimes I look in the mirror to find that I’m sort of glowing from life going so well. And that’s what it’s all about, right?